Do you ever feel like you're doing a pretty good job? Like, yeah, I've got this down. I have definitely had some moments where I have gotten proud, and been humbled quickly. For example, anytime my children are being well-behaved in the store and someone comments, I get proud. Enter the screaming child. I feel like I was doing that to myself with my stance as a follower of Christ. I'm giving freely, I'm spending quiet time with Him, I'm talking to my children about Him, I'm learning so much from His word, I'm, I'm, I'm....oh...there's that pride. Enter the screaming child...which is actually me. It's me being totally disrespectful to my husband. It's me being controlling, argumentative, childish at times, and flat out selfish. It's me claiming my rights, instead of obeying my Lord and submitting to the authority of my husband. It has been brought to my attention (and you know how He does it) via the radio, morning devotions, bloggers (who actually blog more than a dozen times in a 3 year span), Bible study, my husband himself...over and over and now I think I'm starting to actually hear it! It isn't all about my wants and needs, it's about the place God put me and how he wants to bless me. If I'd just zip my lips, change my thoughts and therefore change my ATTITUDE, He'd be able to bless my marriage so much more! My husband would be so much happier! My children would be so much more at peace...and I'd imagine respectful! Lord, I don't have this...I need your help! Seriously! I'm a sinking ship here on my own, I need you to continue to show me the places I'm messing up, and the ways to make it right! Thank you for the chance to do it again and again until I get it right. You're so awesome! In Jesus' name Amen.
So grateful that I have a God that loves me personally and knows my faults and shows them to me so that I can grow and be better. What a blessed life I have!
